I sat there on the living room floor, noticing the dried
cereal stuck in the carpet. I heard my two oldest girls playing in
their room, instead of getting their pajamas on like they were told to
do. But I just didn't care. The house was a mess, there were photos
needing to be edited, events to be coordinated, and many things that I
was going to wake up and be irritated at once again tomorrow. Over and
over again. Don't fling your breakfast. Go to the bathroom. Please just
put your shoes on! We are not having granola bars for lunch.
This
afternoon, while the younger two napped, I set legos out on a blanket
in the yard under some grey summer storm clouds that were still sown
shut and I told June to have a grand old time. She asked me so nicely to
play with her. But I told her I really needed some time to get some
work done and then I left her there to build her "zoo-ship" all by
herself. "It's fine" I told myself, "kids need time alone too. It's good
for her, dang it!" And then I got distracted by a million things on my
computer and only got half of my work done.
I
picked a crusty cheerio out of the carpet as I thought back to the
sight of June sitting alone on that blanket. I felt so sad. I feel like I
can't get a grip. I think I am juggling all these balls but then I
realize I have dropped them and am merely waving my hands in the
air, accomplishing nothing. Running through quick sand. Shoveling in a
blizzard? All of it all at once?
Buck
was putting the baby to sleep and I heard the pajama-less girls
sneaking out for some candy. And I was done. So completely done. I told
them to "get over here" and they came nervously.
"Did you know it's past your bed time?"
"Yes...."
"Well what do you say we skip it altogether?"
"No bed time?"
"I'm feeling spontaneous."
"What's 'spontaneous'?"
"It's when you skip bed time and go to the park at night. Hurry, go get your shoes!"
Their eyes lit up and they, for once, got their shoes on quickly.
We
ran across the street and took to the swings. The park was ours and the
warm night air reviving. The sky above was dark but off in the distance
there was a final trace of blood orange oozing to the earth. We tried to
touch the trees with our toes. Then we ran to the playground and I told
my fellow pirates, Silver Bones and Black Parrot, that we needed to
steal the ship and take it to the Caribbean. So we sailed, slid down
the plank, climbed the ropes and hoisted some sails.
As
we laughed and swam back across the black river and into our little red
brick ship for the night the girls begged to be pirates for the rest of
the week.
They were in bed by 10:00. A small sacrifice for a grand adventure.
Sometimes the best times to connect are the spontaneous bed skipping times.
And maybe tomorrow won't be so bad either.

5 comments:
To bad your parents weren't that cool.
Tom N Larae Allen
Memories will make the difference in their lives!
Susan Andrews
these are the things they will always remember! They are little for such a short time!
Jan Harrison
This is why I am so grateful that you are the mom raising my granddaughters!
Shelley Lortsher 💕
Lauren Lortsher Chills
Wow, I never did that. Never even thought to do that! But I wish I had. I probably would have been a lot less crabby if I had!
You are doing a great job and sometimes what is needed is a pirate ship in the moonlight. I wish I had been so cool.☠️😘
I read this awhile ago but didn't comment...but I will say, it inspired me to be less grumpy at bedtime a couple nights ago...and we always have cereal dried onto our floor!
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